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Beyond the Well Podcast Interview

I recently did a podcast interview with Beyond the Well Podcast's Alex Smedley ...

" Artists come in all forms, from those that write with a pen and those that stain skin with a needle. Join host Austin Smedley and guest Patrick Duggan as they discuss tattooing, Nietzsche, and modern art.

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You can listen to the full interview here  

http://www.thebreezepaper.com/podcasts-2/2019/6/19/beyond-the-well-patrick-duggan

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Prolonged Winter: The Starving Artist

There are seasons of the year just as there are phases of life. The tortured, starving artist is a infantile winter state in which rapid and dramatic internal growth can be achieved, (katabasis, negredo, shadow work.. ) though extreme pain and suffering can be inflicted as the artist is subject to growing pains of having to adapt and evolve so quickly or perish, more often than not to the submissive world of ' normal ' work, such as a coffee shop or a art supply retail chain store. The starving artist state makes or braked an aspiring artist, just as winter often weeds out the weakest. Only in chaos, adversity, in trial, do we create a stimulus for growth.

The phase of the starving artist is so romantic and pure to us in our modern mythology for many reasons. Firstly because there is drama and excitement in the austerity and forced evolution. Secondly, modern man has been led to believe that only through misery and submission can true 'work' exist. Basically, if you enjoy it, it's not work, which might be one of the bleakest and most destructive axioums of this nothing diwngoing kali yuga age. Thirdly, the modern man is confused in his spirit and doesn't understand the value and place of art and artistic pursuits and how it can have any meaningful affect in the modern world of technological advances and smart phones and television screen and the ten thousand other things. And lastly, society is without its shamans or its meaningful aesetic archetypes. The modern man has put the man of aesthetics, often wrongly sometimes rightly into the realm of the aesetic. This infects the aspiring artists mind as well and sentences his future to a frustrating shamed existence of trying to make a living while adhering to a ill-defined ethical and moral code that was unconsciously thrust upon the arts to have a unhealthy relationship with abundance and wealth.
It is true, You must be willing to suffer for your craft, to do the necessary work both inner and outer to become an 'artist', though this certainly does not only apply to the physical arts of drawing and painting ecetera, but really any sort of creative pursuit that breaks the institutional societal norms of what most accept as a ' career ', ' job ', ' occupation '. Any magickal act!

Often times I believe artists get stuck and artificially try to prolong or cling to this starving, famine season of thier artistic journey for its precieved purity, if only often mentally and subconsciously,  manifesting through a bad and ineffective relationship with money. The answer to this can be seen in tantric and zen schools as well as the traditionalism of Evola and Nietzsche l, all of which we can find this idea of living in this world but not being of it, 'Riding the Tiger', 'Surfing the Kali Yuga'  Artists need to but be wise enough to know when it's time to fall into predictable routines, and simulate a sort of womb like  protection from which they can grow over a greater period of time at a slower pace, :f:inding sanctuary where they can refine and do quiet work for a time, introducing more controlled forms of chaos to elicit progression. Both can create different forms of growth and are needed at different points along any artists maturation. We sometimes need a Shakti and sometimes we need Mahakali.

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Life is Suffering. Life is Dissatisfaction.

Life is Suffering. Life is Dissatisfaction.


In Operation Werewolf there exists an axiom that asserts 'Physical training is never just physical'. This strikes my core for if it were not so I'd certainly have little interest in it's pursuit.


“The Iron never lies to you. You can walk outside and listen to all kinds of talk, get told that you’re a god or a total bastard. The Iron will always kick you the real deal. The Iron is the great reference point, the all-knowing perspective giver. Always there like a beacon in the pitch black. I have found the Iron to be my greatest friend. It never freaks out on me, never runs. Friends may come and go. But two hundred pounds is always two hundred pounds.” -  Henry Rollins


Truth is in moments of disappointment and dissatisfaction we must embrace that there is no divine justice that makes certain that the we receive our rightful fruits of our labors, a reason or meaning for our blood. sweat, pain and suffering. Life is unfair, and no one is coming to save your ass.


The Iron doesn't owe you ten more pounds just because you had it 4 months ago. How often do we keep tallys, keep score, hold grudges with people in our lives because of our inflated egos and sense of entitlement? How often do we allow our spirits to be crushed under the demiurgic 'dark satanic mills' of our material penitentiary existences?


Be glad to know limitation, dissatisfaction, pain and suffering. Shed your own blood, sweat and tears, because this life experience is yours alone to suffer and endure. No one can take that away. No one can share your pain. Through trials and tribulation we ground our egos, and gain gnosis, sparing ourselves bar stool talk with inflated guts and swollen self images built by theoretical strength and unrealized potential. The unexamined life is not worth living, and you should probably kill it before it lays eggs


'You come into this world with nothing except yourself.

You leave this world with nothing except yourself. '

Algiz: 6 Years of the ongoing Operation

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Today is the sixth anniversary of the beginning of Operation Werewolf. While I wasnt there at the start, we all find our way eventually, at the right time, no sooner. We all must stumble around, searching in the darkness for awhile alone until we develop enough to at the very least find the others who are finding the way. 

Aliester Crowley famously stated in his Book of the Law, 'Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the law.' And also “Magick is the science and art of causing change to occur in conformity with will.”

Meditating upon the image of the Algiz rune, it appears obviously as one path diverging into three. Finding a current to tap into, such as I found with Operation Werewolf can be electrifying and amplifying for our wills in that we are aligning our willed effort into a feedback system, a crucible of building pressure that perpetually stimulates individual growth with manifests into group growth. The efforts of one when magickally in synch with the tribe, the group, the community, vibrate out and can more powerfully alter the fabric of our reality. Individual operatives function like individual cells within a greater organism, to contribute to the health and :m:ight and le:g:end of not only the sum of the parts, but reciprocated, the individual himself.  

Onward and upward. 92!  

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Path to Ketosis gnosis day 31

Surprising note. In addition to losing a lot of strength and therefore doing less weight and less volume than I would have just a few weeks ago, and foregoing a lot of the isolation work I would normally do, it took 4 whole days for me to recover from a squat session. Very sore with doms for 2 days. Lingering soreness for 2 days after. 

A great interview with Craig Williams

http://www.ayurvedaplusworld.com/theextendedstory/2015/6/26/craig-williams-a-clear-instruction-on-your-spiritual-journey

 

An older yet still potent interview with Craig, a friend and fellow operative, doctor of areyvedic medicine. 

Path to Ketosis Gnosis: Day 27

Long overdue, but today was my first day back in the gym since starting keto. Basically came in with the purpose of resetting my routine and assessing where my numbers in strength are currently at. I decided to keep it short and to the point, focusing only on the main compound lifts. My form felt good though the previously light weight felt surprisingly challenging towards the last few reps. Not that bummed about the strength loss because I'm excited to get stronger again, excited to experience the process of getting to my old numbers and then smashing them. But I will admit this was surprisingly challenging. I am sure I will be sore tomorrow.  Onward and upward!

 

Warm up:

-Goblet squat: 1-10-53

-Kettlebell high pull: 1-10-53

-Kettlebell swing: 1-10-53

-Kettlebell deadlift: 1-10-53

-mace hammer swings- 1-60-14

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-squat: 1-5-45. 1-5-95. 5-5-135.

-front squat: 3-5-95

-kb overhead rev lunges: 3-8-35

Modern Art: a reflective image of the Kali Yuga Age.

A inspired ranting inspired by reading the begging of my friend Zachary Taylor Meade’s primer 'Primirdeal Geometric Supremacy: The Implicit hierarchy of emergent form'. A lot of the points and ideas I discuss in this are a re-visitation of ideas I write about on my website blog a few weeks back. This entry i wrote was titled 'God Us Dead: Postmodern Piss Christs and Cultural Traditionalism' ( https://cvltovthebikervvitch.com/blog/9/30/y/god-is-dead-postmodern-pisschrists-and-cultural-traditionalism ).


-You can find Zach on Instagram @frostserpent ( https://instagram.com/frostserpent?utm_source=ig_profile_share&igshid=7d7y452k2g5c )


-Also check out and support his other project @donnybrook.farm


-in the video near the end I also allude to an interview with @haunter_of_the_void // @wolfchild.ad done by Paul Waggener of Operation Werewolf @paulwaggener / @@operationwerewolfofficial ... www.operationwerewolf.com


** toward the end of the video there is a choppy and abrupt cut. Had a strange camera malfunction and lost a few sentences.  Not sure exactly what went wrong ***

Interview with Wolfchild AD / Haunter of the Void

killer interview between Paul Waggener and Wolfchild Ad ( Instagram: @wolfchild.ad ) a out art, music and horror films. 

Path to Ketosis Gnosis: Day 24

Currently injesting the audiobook 'Primal Fat Burner'. The last 2 days I've eaten very little. I have taken my butter and oil bulletproof coffee in the morning, coffee with half and half throughout the day and otherwise fasted until the evening. Yesterday I consumed one cheese stick, two small packages of raw almonds, one quest bar, and a spoonful of peanut butter. Today I had one quest bar, a few raw spinach leaves and 2 hard boiled eggs. Feelings of hunger are interestingly very minimal if existing at all. 

Penumbra. (And Citadel Ritual photos.)

penumbra. Painting finished through the night.  Completed at about 5am this morning. 

penumbra. Painting finished through the night.  Completed at about 5am this morning. 

created for Operation Werewolf Citadel. Left was created in an altered ritual trance state. Right is a refund version done later on separately.   

created for Operation Werewolf Citadel. Left was created in an altered ritual trance state. Right is a refund version done later on separately.   

CRAIG WILLIAMS AND GABRIEL MCCAUGHRY : ANATHEMA PUBLISHING

A great talk between fellow Werewolf Operative, Craig Williams, and Anathema Publishing's Gabriel McCaughry. Craig is an incredibly inspirational being. He released a book titled 'Entering the Desert' a few months ago, which I enthusiastically pre-ordered and now proudly own, that was released by Anathema. Craig is a doctor who runs his own practice down in Austin, Texas where he is able to apply his incredible knowledge of Ayurvedic medicine, Vedic astrology, Yoga, Vedic science, Vedanta, Chinese Medicine, Acupuncture and clinical herbalism. Check out his site http://www.ayurvedaaustin.com/. As well as Anathema Publishing https://www.anathemapublishing.com/ which I believe is hands down one of the best contemporary publishers of occult works today, hands down.